And I'm afraid, I'm afraid of telling you how I feel. We definitely won't be able to go on normally & that's the last thing I want to happen. I'm obsessed, everytime I'm alone I'll think of you. Half the songs on my playlists are for you. And you really won't ever know it. Because you'll never know me well enough to guess for yourself. And no way am I telling you. I'm scared of losing you to someone else, I thought I was the only one but it doesn't seem so. I don't know what to think anymore, we're spending more time together but that is hardly enough. I keep dreaming of you, but then again it'll never do. I need you more than you would ever know. You're perhaps the only one who can make me smile now & you don't even know it. That's just the way things are now. For a period of time you got me thinking that the feeling was mutual, but I really am unsure now. I miss you, even though I spoke to you barely a few hours ago. That's really just how much I love & need you. Perhaps one day I'll look back on this & feel disgusted with myself, but at this point in time, you're all that matters to me.